Looking Back and Looking Forward

VERY IMPORTANT UPDATE: Please go to this link to read how I have recovered my health using The Dynamic Neural Retraining System (DNRS)! 

Hello Friends!

This post is being brought to you by Travis; Mariah is trying to take a break from technology and everything else that she reacts to for a period of time.

I recently heard a quote from Soren Kierkegaard (by way of Rev. James Atwood) that I found to be comforting:

Life must be lived forward, but it can only be understood backwards.

We often find ourselves living in mystery, we don’t understand our days as they pass before us, but we can’t live any faster than one day at a time. So, we press into each day as best we can and trust that, in looking back, we will be able to discern meaning and purpose and, most importantly, the presence of God in our lives. We are trying to live that way.

But it’s really hard, as you know.

First, I’m going to let you look over my shoulder as I look backwards over our last few days. Then, at the bottom (here by popular demand) is a tangible way you can support us, if you want to (an Amazon wish list for household goods for our new house).

VERY IMPORTANT UPDATE: Please go to this link to read how I have recovered my health using The Dynamic Neural Retraining System (DNRS)! 

We have now spent one full week in our new place in Morro Bay. We are so grateful for a place that Mariah doesn’t seem to have major reactions to. We are learning to hold our expectations and comforts loosely as we ease into life after Mariah’s diagnosis. For instance, she reacts to the bed, so she has been sleeping on a cot.IMG_0081

Mariah has been reacting to just about every store we go into – scents from people’s detergents or deodorant or perfume, bleach scents from recent cleanings, possible mold in stores, dust being moved around through HVAC systems, plastics off-gassing in the store nearby. This isn’t new, but it is increasing in frequency and severity (this is actually expected as her detoxification increases she moves into a season of “hypersensitivity;” however, expecting it and enjoying it are two very different things). To mitigate the possibility of exposure Mariah has been wearing a mask, and, as you would expect, making the best of it and getting a laugh whenever she can.

VERY IMPORTANT UPDATE: Please go to this link to read how I have recovered my health using The Dynamic Neural Retraining System (DNRS)! 

Version 2I told her I thought her mask made her look like a ninja. Her form, so far as I can tell, seems to confirm my thesis.

IMG_0080Purchasing a bucket to do our laundry and a patio chair to complete our set of 4. Please note the fog expanding on her glasses, and the smile lines around her eyes. 🙂

VERY IMPORTANT UPDATE: Please go to this link to read how I have recovered my health using The Dynamic Neural Retraining System (DNRS)! 

IMG_1287She has to take so many pills every day that it’s much more efficient to pour the powder into a glass and drink it. The mask protects her from the cloud of dust each pill makes.

We have been trying to explore the area around Morro Bay. We recently went to Montana de Oro state park, a beautiful park that includes trails following the line of the ocean from atop rugged cliffs.

VERY IMPORTANT UPDATE: Please go to this link to read how I have recovered my health using The Dynamic Neural Retraining System (DNRS)! 

IMG_1455While traveling through the park to the cliffs we drove through a eucalyptus forest, planted to support the whaling industry here decades ago (to make fires on the beach, I believe) since no native hardwoods grew this close to the ocean. It was a gorgeous forest, but as soon as we entered it Mariah felt dizzy, sick to her stomach, and basically awful (and we both got really tired all of a sudden). Mariah learned through her Facebook mold groups that others have had similar experiences in this park.

VERY IMPORTANT UPDATE: Please go to this link to read how I have recovered my health using The Dynamic Neural Retraining System (DNRS)! 

IMG_1466We have had to purchase many things on Amazon to get settled into our new home (for more on how to help us settle, see below!). But every time a box comes I need to open it outside and smell each of the contents before bringing it into the house. Mariah has reacted to a few of the things we’ve purchased, already so we need to exert vigilance in this regard.

VERY IMPORTANT UPDATE: Please go to this link to read how I have recovered my health using The Dynamic Neural Retraining System (DNRS)! 

IMG_0052Not far from our house is Morro Bay State Park, which is an estuary for several migrating birds, and also includes a salt marsh and mud flats. We aren’t quite sure what we were looking at here, but the streaks of green material on the right hand side were remarkable. In the background you can see Morro Rock, a beautiful but other-worldly landmark in the area.

IMG_0048Sunset from our porch the night we moved in. That dark mound is Morro Rock; we have an unobstructed view of it from our house, and as the earth continues to tilt toward the summer solstice we will be able to see the sun itself setting for the next several months.

We take the joys and the challenges as they come, each day. We do not take for granted the beauty that surrounds us, and we are trying to face the challenges with what inner fortitude we can muster. Your encouragements and support have meant the world to us, and give us strength to struggle to remain centered in a fragmenting and disorienting season.

Many of you over the last few months have asked us if there is a tangible way you can help us stock our house with the needs that we have, such as by making a registry for you to select things from to send to us. We have heard you and with deep gratitude have made the following Amazon wishlist.

If you would like to purchase something to occupy our home, simply click the link above, select what you’d like to purchase, add it to your cart, send it to the default address (in Morro Bay), and Amazon should automatically remove it once it’s been purchased. We have ordered the list intentionally – the items at the top are the highest priority, and it descends from there. There are items that run the full gamut from less than $10 to a couple hundred. You will notice many items geared to control water, humidity, and dust (huge supporters of mold). Thank you to all of you who suggested this, and to each of you who continues to partner with us on this journey.

May you find strength to continue to live your life forward as you look backwards to find meaning and significance you couldn’t see or sense during the moment.

Much love, from Morro Bay,
Travis and Mariah

VERY IMPORTANT UPDATE: Please go to this link to read how I have recovered my health using The Dynamic Neural Retraining System (DNRS)! 

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